I feel bad

I feel so bad I can't spend quality time Champion and lil' President. That is the drawback of having kids with close age gaps :(

When I was pregnant for lil' President, I had to train Champion to be more attached to apps. Then when he was born, of course, I had to take care of the newborn and apps continued to take care of Champion.

When I knew I was pregnant with Aaron, again, I trained lil' President to be close to apps. Before that, he would only look for my arm.. to scratch my elbow. After the training, apps elbow would do too *sigh*

Now that Aaron is born, I have to take care of him, while apps concentrates of the other two. I try to spend as much time as possible with the boys. As of now, the boys are going to my in-laws during the day (as usual) and comes home with apps only late evening. So, its just few hours there for me. Unfortunately, Aaron is extremenely fussy in the late evenings till sleep time. He wants to be held and feed almost constantly! So, how can I spend even the least time with my boys? :(

Sometimes Aaron manages to sleep for 1/2 hour, which is when I eat with the boys or sit with then at the dining table (if I have had my dinner).

But the saddest time is putting the boys to sleep at night, especially when apps is coming home late. I will have to put Aaron to sleep and the boys won't sleep till I join them. Sometimes they just sit on the bed waiting for me.. calling out to me.. "Come amma.." Sometimes they come and stand beside me.. waiting for me to finish feeding Aaron and put him to sleep. *sigh*

Luckily Champion is loving and doesn't mind taking care of lil' President.. whole is still a baby even though he is the mischievous one. Last night Champion offered to and over the milk when lil' President insisted I pass it to him. He asked his brother to sleep and put the bottle in his mouth. Afte he had finished, he called out to me "Amma, come amma.. give me hand" And again, I had to ask Champion for a favour. Champion willingly offered his hand and lil' President held his brother hand while waiting for me to come. Although that moment didn't last long (they ended up playing with each other), I was touched. I had to tell Champion that I was proud of him for loving and taking care of his brother! He smiled :)

After so long of waiting, Aaron slept off. I joined the boys.. kiss each other 'good night', said our "I love yous & sweet dreams".. As I hug them to sleep, I hear Aaron start his small cry.. he needed cuddling again! Argghh.. I had to leave the boys.

After a minute I came back to them and they were already asleep *sigh*

How I miss them.. I just wish I can stop the time sometimes!

How they have changed

Both the both are excited with their new brother. The first few days that he came home, both of them practically kissed him every few minutes.. every time they walk past him!

Have they changed since the arrival of their new sibling? Yes.. I have notice some changes.

Champion..
He is being more responsible than he already is.
He used to cry/fuss for apps, but now he only does that only when he is sleepy.

He even goes for sleepovers at his cousins or his maternal grandparents. He doesn’t mind being away from the family a day or two.. *sigh* We are the ones missing him now..

A recent affection of his is to climb on apps back. The moment apps lies on his stomach, he climbs on his back.. no matter how occupied he is with other things. He even loves to sleep on his back.

He did come up with something cute.. Apparently, when his little brother cries, it sounds like “Anna, anna, anna...” which means ‘brother’. He says that his brother is calling out for him!

He is protective over his brother. He approaches him carefully. When other children (even lil’ President) are rough or touches baby’s head, he would tell them off.. When anyone jokes about taking his brother, he would end up crying. Once, he even asked his taatha to take lil’ President and leave the baby with him!

Lil’ President..
He is very much the same person, as active and mischievous as ever :)
He is a little more attached to us.. apps especially. He follows him wherever he goes around the house.. and I mean every inch!

Although he loved to go to his maternal grandparents for the weekend a few months back, now he prefers to stay home.. “I want to stay in my home” or “I want to go appa's house”he says when asked whether he wants to stay with them or his cousins. It doesn't matter whether Champion is going or not.

Initially, he was a bit rough and fast when touching his brother.. he pulls his hand, grabs his clothes, pulls off his booties (which gives him a shock). We had to constantly remind him to touch his brother softly.. and he is much better now. Although he is approaching his brother in a more gentle manner, we still have to have a watchful eye on lil’ President whenever he is near him.. Being himself, we wouldn’t know when he feels like being mischievous, don’t we! ;)
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taatha : maternal grandfather

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